And Life Goes On...

There, under the great dark sky Where fear lurks, and hearts die She walks through, With her head held high The truth, her face flawlessly hides. That blackened soul, and  distant mind, A river of insanity, those helpless sighs, But a mountain of hopes, Gathered strength,  All that makes her what she is... Soul, shredded to bits and pieces, Heart, Bound by lies. Hallow on the inside She feels numb And she's on the verge of giving up  But piece by piece she picks herself up, Heals her broken heart  Dives again in love, Only to have it  shattered again And again and again,  till there's nothing left. And then she lives on with her dead heart. 

She waited for that right time but it never came.  Poured her heart out, hoping the words would sustain What she'd felt all along, alas all in her head — That stupid girl built a castle, and then set it aflame! "It's okay..." said a voice inside her head.  "...as long as you keep it to yourself." "But how?" she asked, wondering how mad she was, Talking to herself – 'Gosh, this is insane,' she thought!  "Shh.. Just don't speak out,  keep it inside, Say what you must,  but under your breath,  And then 'lie' out loud,  And that way, nothing's left unsaid!" She'd already done part damage, But it wasn't something she still couldn't salvage. She'd just said how she really felt,  Nothing too much, it was just her heart, now hanging from the ledge... Feeling loved, but not much, Somewhat rejected, because it wasn't enough, She'd only followed

My mind races as thoughts swirl through Like a sword through the heart it hurts While I restlessly wait for you  Aching to hear the comforting sound of your voice, and to feel your soft, caressing touch It feels wrong but I want to make it right Only to see where this is going I want to be selfish for a while. But is it worth what I'll lose—just because I can't control how I feel right now? And I feel I was better-off numb When I hadn't let you in But then I feel I couldn't have done much When you looked at me like you did I still don't know where this is going  But I want to give it the best I've got Because if I lose you now,  I know I'll regret not ever giving you a chance.